Let It Go

Let everything be
For a little while
Quit shaping,
Pruning
and organizing
The plants
So that they grow
Controlled
In the dirt
Never to wander up the fence
With wild arms
This idea of perfection
For which you strive
Is driving everyone
Crazy
Including you
Let everything be
Your presentation
Does not have to be
Perfect
For you to experience the
Hand of Love
Gently rocking your Chair
God loves,
Even your crazy morning hair
And Torn Pajamas
Let everything be
The pressure is only building
Because you won’t let go
Of the idea of perfect

Heart Wisdom

Speak your wisdom,
Oh, heart
With your
Steady
Rhythmic
Beat
Beat
Beating…
Let your
Ebb and flow
Drowned out
The loose cannon
Thoughts
Of the mind
Which run wild tonight
Spinning and reeling
In too many directions to count
Move loudly within
Slowing
Steadying
Being
Beat
Beat
Beating
Until the mind
Is quiet

Simple Things

Clean Laundry
New plants breaking through garden soil
A tall glass of ice water
Fifteen minutes of uninterrupted reading
Laying in patch of sunshine on my bedroom floor
My children laughing together
A bowl of ice cream
A phone call from a good friend
A found dog
The smell of jasmine flowers
Being home
Being home
Being home

Just Like Magic

It lay across the path
In patterned silence
Still as a stick
Blown down from the tree
In last week’s storm
It lay
Patches of brown and tan
Blending
Into the woodchips
Where little feet walk
Every day
Four sets of feet ran right over the top of it
Brushing it
Perhaps
Without a glance
But I looked down at the fifth pair
As they went running by and started at the sight of him
Three feet long
Lounging in the sun
He saw me jump
And we watched as his stick straight body
Bent into curves and slithered off the path
Into the grass and bushes
He slithered in a slow way
Disappearing
Inch by inch
Just like magic

Fair Food

Fair food
Is not as good
As I remembered
It tastes like
Last week’s
Fast food leftovers
Even cotton candy as it melts
Has lost a bit of magic
Indigestion sets in easier
Than it used to
Next time I will bring
An apple

Rebuilding the Ancient

Pine cones
Pop and crack
They loosen their grip
On the beloved branches
Of the ancient coastal pine
In my back yard
They fall down to the earth
With a thump
That makes me start
Time and again
The wind calls them
Down to the earth
To lay out seeds upon the ground
To rebuild the ancient
From scratch and time
In the rich brown soil

Fortune Cookie

I cracked open my fortune cookie
And in it, the paper read:
Be an ambassador for change
All day it lingered
Like the weight of bricks and flowers
On my chest
It might have been
The charge
That caused me to give
My freshly purchased string cheese
To the man
In the Trader Joes parking lot
With the cardboard sign
Or it might have been that thought
That helped my hands to get
A bag
So that I could gather trash
On my afternoon walk
Or
It might have encouraged a pause
In a long winded lecture
I was about to give my daughter
About not listening
And led me
Instead
To stop and wrap my arms around her
What if all of our fortunes
Gave us this charge?
To simply be an ambassador for change

I Live in a Gray Blue Box

I live in a gray blue box
With kind neighbors on one side
Who don’t normally make noise
But tend to their flowers with diligence

In front there is a cement pathway
That leads nowhere in one direction
And is boundless in the other

There are often noises
Outside my bedroom window
At night
And during the day
Car doors shutting
Big wheels on the pavement
Twin two year olds chattering with the little birds
Who like to sit in the cherry tree

The roots of the cherry tree
Are embedded in the gray smooth cement
With only a small square hole
For its body to fit through to seek the light
And the rain

Rain has come often this year
With its pitter and patter and wind
Last night the wind visited
And covered with her dancing fingers
All of the sounds
The car doors shutting,
The neighbor’s radio,
The dogs barking
The wind lulled me to sleep
And brought me
In my dreams
To my dear mountains in the North
Where the wind charges through the valleys
Like a train

The Local

He came to the beach
Every day at sunset
A beer in hand
To watch the surf
And the sun
As it lay itself
Down in ocean blue
He was a regular
He was friendly
And at times
Inappropriate

When I would come for my evening walks
With my dog
I would often take the long way around
To avoid the banter
Of he and his drinking comrades
Whose names and stories
I do not know

He died this week
Was stabbed by a knife
And bled out on the sidewalk
Long after sunset

There were flowers
That covered the stains on the sidewalk
Trinkets
And beer bottles
Left by other locals

One rock read
“It won’t be the same without you”

And I wondered what it meant
Who had loved and cherished his life
Who will miss him

Maybe from now on I will try
Every now and again
Not to walk the long way around,
Maybe to linger
And hear a story or two
That I would have missed otherwise

Stories of colorful characters
Human beings whose lives are intertwined,
From a distance,
With mine

Good Food and Friendship

Two friends came from a distance
Two weeks apart
To take me out
To two nights
Of dinner and conversation
For my birthday
I Love
Having good friends
Who know me
And love me anyway
Both nights we talked and dined
No subject left uncovered
As we explored our thoughts
Together
Laughed at memories of past
And the trials of everyday life
And dared to speak
Our hopes and fears
Out loud

For my birthday,
I received the gift
Of being known
I have been seen
By loving eyes
As the person I have been,
The person I am in practice,

And the person I shall
Become

Partially because I have friends
Who know me
And love me anyway

Song of Thanksgiving

We spent the morning
Walking through the tall grasses
The burrs clung to us
As we made our way to the tree fort
In the center of the field

Little feet made a mighty trail
With all of their tossing and tumbling
Purple flowers lay down on the ground
As we passed
Making way for the procession

We found a caterpillar
It climbed first one child’s belly than another
As they watched and laughed
I think the caterpillar got his exercise today
Climbing up
Then starting over
Again and again
Before we made him a cozy bed
In a grass house
Near our tree

Then

We hung swings in branches
And used old logs to sit on
As we ate our snack in the grass

Although we were hidden from sight
I am sure our sound carried
Over the field
As we blessed the earth
With laughter
And our song of thanksgiving

The slugs

The slugs rejoiced in the night
They had a ruckus party in the garden
Way past midnight
At the expense of the lettuce and flowers
Who now have tatters in their gowns

The flowers prefer a full dress
To the modern holey look
That the slugs doled out in the night
I will have to have a talk with them
Or leave out glasses of beer
Where the slugs can drown the flower sorrows
In ale

My prayer today

My prayer today
Let me expand out
Beyond my plans and ideas
To embrace light
In the world around me
To ignite kinship
To be connected
To be

A quick, hopefully helpful, note to a friend.

Open your Eyes...
you could loose everything...

Chances are
That your ego
Is not telling
The truth

Thirty Seven and Counting

The celebration of my thirty-seventh year began yesterday
With a new hairdo
And my family gathered round me
Each telling me something that they value in me

This tradition used to make me uncomfortable
I somehow couldn’t believe
The good things
That are unfolding within me
With each passing year

God has had a lot of patience
With my rascally ways

I found this year
That I could listen
To the kindness
That poured from familiar lips
And I could even see
The outline of my own heart
Set out before me
Through the eyes of another


I am changing
I am deepening
I am still unfolding and becoming
I am thirty seven years wiser
With more thankfulness
To come

THE BEET

The beet grew up out of the ground
Its leafy fingers raised towards the sun
Its ripe red earth belly
Is growing rounder and juicier by the day
I watered and watched
As it ripened and expanded above the ground
Its belly resting on the brown soil
When it was two inches around the middle
I pulled it up out of the ground
Surprised by the length of the root
That had held it there
Thankful,
I took it into the kitchen,
Washed and cut it
It stained my fingers and the cutting board
Red
Then I sauteed it in a pan
And mixed it into my salad
Everything it touched
Was left with a bit of its color
With some of its beautiful red earthy life
Including me

Remnants of time

Remnants of time
Deposited on surfaces
Each depicting a thought
Or a memory
I am a collector of natural things
Rocks and stones
Speak to me
And often find their way into
My pocket
And the laundry
Sometimes when I get home
from a particularly observant walk
My arms as well as my pockets
Are full of longings and ideas
That I set out on the table
Or arrange in a bowl
Or display in any number of ways
Out in the garden along the path
Each item holds a connection for me
Perhaps a link to the past
Or a question about the future,
but the best are the ones that come as an idea
that inspires me into creative action
I love to hold these treasures in my hand
To feel the weathered wood,
Or the smooth surface of a rock
Which has been tumbled in the surf
Each treasure has been transformed
Or has the potential to be

Flight to Now

I walked a thousand steps
Each one held a memory
A scent or a picture
Re-enlivened within
There doesn’t seem to be a bridge
Between whom I was and who I am
That I can span with reason
There are just
GAPS
That can only be filled
By continuing to step forward
One foot at a time
Into the present and into
New experiences
Which create and renew me
It is only in this present moment
That I can live
Feathers unfurled
Ready for the flight
To now

Willow on the Wind

Seeds fell from the willow like snow
White gathered in banks around the garden bed
The children ran catching the delicate cotton
In outstretched hands

Gathering wishes
From the willow fairies
And tossing them back into the air
To be lifted up on the breeze as an offering

Magic came alive today
In downy feathers floating on the air

Carrying willow babies
And our hopes
Far and wide

It is all in the mixing

Today we spent time with new friends
Measuring flower oil and sugar
the perfect ingredients for a friendship
in the chaos of children and life
there was a simple connection
that left me thankful
for the moment and the food,
and even for all of the distraction
simple blessings
often offer great hope!